In the middle of my shift at work, I just felt this sudden pang of sadness. For the first time in months, I will admit of depression. I was having a hard time, always got the attitude, defensive, to the point of rude.
I don't really want to be a bother to people around me. I am aware of my strength, my weaknesses and it creeps me to find this 'loose thread' in myself. There is a part of me that wants to escape and just scream at the world: whattafuck, this is not true. I have always been rational, I have always been that person who is steps ahead.
So, in this malady of sadness and confusion of feelings, I found this article. Well, I read most of the first part before the video and it did made sense. What strikes me the most significant is that it tells people to embrace the naturalness of death. I agree, death is as natural as the pouring of rain, rising of the sun, and beating of the heart. I don't mind accepting death, I embrace it truly and will never deny its inevitability. Though, what's keeping me down is the fact that people make such a fuss over death.
Fine, that's their right, I have no say with what they believe in. Still, it annoys me. It depress me that they inflict their weakness on me. I refuse to their consolation. Death is natural but it is not a walk in the park. By death, I meant that of the people who are dear to us. Our own death is non-sense, we would never get to experience it, let the people who will bury us gloss over our death.
There are a lot of things more important than something we will never experience. So, this will be my last peep about death. rip...
